okay okay

so the menstruation monster has left, and i now feel sane enough to blog. what an unbelievable aspect of a woman's life. my belly expanded to near six months pregnant stage, my boobs followed suit. it felt like i had been punched in the nipples and my ovaries had been twisted in a vice grip. my body is currently deflating and no longer aching. does god want us to be pregnant all the time? is this why he makes us feel like shit when we don't get sperminated? i will never give in. if my hormones can wreak that kind of havoc once a month, i can't imagine what nine months feels like.

i learned a great lesson this morning about vitamins. never take them on an empty stomach! i take a women's dietary supplement to get my iron and zinc, and if taken on an empty stomach it feels like you've instantly downed a few guinnesses, without the pleasant feeling of being drunk. seriously it was like a lead weight in my stomach and i was sure i was going to vom. i had a late breakfast and not much of a lunch, so i can't see myself reaching my caloric goal. i don't know - it's not good to eat so little, but it's also not good to getting used to one enormous meal every day. i thought i would have trouble cutting back calories, turns out it's a problem with balance. balance!

meal 1 - 195

1/2 cup whole grain cereal - 160

1/2 cup soy milk - 35

meal 2 - 110

lettuce, veggies - 40

2 tbs dressing - 70

meal 3 - 250

2 slices cinnamon bread - 200

1/2 tbs butter - 50

meal 4 - 270

soup - 270

meal 5 - 270

english muffin pizza - 270

total = 1095