i did shit today!

bank shit! and then i mailed things! i am so productive. i set-up an account at bank of america and the guy actually showed me how to use an atm button by button. i think i'm going to love this bank. i've yet to close my winchester co-op account because i feel so nervous...like i'm breaking up with them. i don't want to hurt their feelings but they have my money and i need it in colorado!

well i'm having a very inspiring conversation with martha about the summer. it's going to be so wonderful to feel healthy in those unbearably hot months. i remember 6th grade was a big year of self-consciousness for me. We were still in summer temps in September, but I refused to wear shorts to school because I thought my thighs were nasty (I did not respond well to puberty). I wore jeans everyday and I can't imagine the sweaty torture that must have been. So here's to feeling good about taking your pants off, no matter what your legs look like!

meal 1 - 300

cinnamon bread - 200

1 tbs butter - 100

meal 2 - 500

salmon burger on white roll

meal 3 - 190

frozen coffee yogurt - 90

cereal - 100

meal 4 - 380

salad - 120

soup - 200

tea with silk - 60

meal 5 - 200

soup - 200

total = 1570

25 min skating

the colts have lost, so shall i (weight that is)

lovely evening with martha - tried out 2 servings of low-cal nachos and they were very yummy. felt myself getting very full halfway through so i'm excited to have one 400 calorie serving when i'm not starving! still struggling with a calorie balance. i want to at least try to have heavier breakfasts to offset this one giant meal problem. one day at a time!

meal 1 - 160

1/2 cup whole grain cereal - 160

meal 2 - 300

1 whole pita - 100

4 tbs peanut butter - 200

meal 3 - 170

soy yogurt - 170

meal 4 - 310

soup - 90

1/2 pita - 50

soy yogurt - 170

meal 5 - 800

nachos - 800

total = 1740

okay okay

so the menstruation monster has left, and i now feel sane enough to blog. what an unbelievable aspect of a woman's life. my belly expanded to near six months pregnant stage, my boobs followed suit. it felt like i had been punched in the nipples and my ovaries had been twisted in a vice grip. my body is currently deflating and no longer aching. does god want us to be pregnant all the time? is this why he makes us feel like shit when we don't get sperminated? i will never give in. if my hormones can wreak that kind of havoc once a month, i can't imagine what nine months feels like.

i learned a great lesson this morning about vitamins. never take them on an empty stomach! i take a women's dietary supplement to get my iron and zinc, and if taken on an empty stomach it feels like you've instantly downed a few guinnesses, without the pleasant feeling of being drunk. seriously it was like a lead weight in my stomach and i was sure i was going to vom. i had a late breakfast and not much of a lunch, so i can't see myself reaching my caloric goal. i don't know - it's not good to eat so little, but it's also not good to getting used to one enormous meal every day. i thought i would have trouble cutting back calories, turns out it's a problem with balance. balance!

meal 1 - 195

1/2 cup whole grain cereal - 160

1/2 cup soy milk - 35

meal 2 - 110

lettuce, veggies - 40

2 tbs dressing - 70

meal 3 - 250

2 slices cinnamon bread - 200

1/2 tbs butter - 50

meal 4 - 270

soup - 270

meal 5 - 270

english muffin pizza - 270

total = 1095

happy groundhog's day

so i definitely didn't eat enough calories today thanks to the THREE HOURS in the hair salon. my hair is back to blonde though so i can finally take myself seriously. although i do intend to eat less on days i don't exercise, my calorie goals are actually 2000 on exercise days, and 1800 without a workout. caloriecount.com has a great tool to help you figure out what your daily calorie allowance should be based on your current bmi, weight loss goals, and activity level. actually, they have loads of great tools. i love this site!

snack attack a.k.a. meal 4 brought to you by LOST :)

meal 1 - 245

1 cup kashi go lean - 210

1/2 cup light soy milk - 35

meal 2 - 180

Tofutti and jam on toast - 180

meal 3 - 600

homemade caesar salad - 400

veggie chili - 200

meal 4 - 563

popcorn - 200

4 oreos - 213

1 hot chocolate (water) - 150

total = 1588

holy pizzas batman

while flipping through martha's cosmo yesterday i noticed an "eat this, not this" article with little english muffin pizza's on them. they sounded delicious and i was jonesin' for some red peppers so i made a vegan-friendly version. i could not believe how yummy and filling they were. so much so that i had to make them twice that day. ranging anywhere from 260-290 calories depending on your cheese-to-sauce ratio, here is how i took my little pizzas:

set oven to "broil"

place two whole grain muffin halves on ungreased baking sheet

spread 2 tbs tomato sauce on each halve

add chopped veggies of your choice

drop 1-2 tbs of Tofutti "better than cream cheese" on each

top with salt & pepper

place in oven 5-6 minutes until edges of muffin are brown and crispy

1 whole muffin = 100 calories, veggies are approx 20 calories

each tbs of sauce is approx 10 calories, each tbs of Tofutti is 30

meal 1 - 330

1/2 cup whole grain cereal - 160

1/4 cup light soy milk - 20

3 egg white omelette - 48

1 tbs butter - 102

meal 2 - 612

1 cup madras lentils - 240

1 pita - 372

meal 3 - 580

4 oz whole wheat pasta - 420

1 cup sauce - 160

meal 4 - 245

1 cup kashi go lean - 210

1/2 cup light soymilk - 35

total = 1767

25 min skating

makin' banana pancakes

last night around 6:30 i did a quick total of my calories and it was only up to around 1000. it was such a surprise because normally i would have already doubled that. i have to find a happy medium! today i'll try to get more calories in before dinner time, or else i'll be stuck wolfing down the food to catch up. it's still so bitter cold out so i think i'll make the best of it and skate on the pond for today's exercise.

meal 1 - 490

3 banana walnut pancakes - 490

meal 2 - 105

5 pita chips - 80
5 tbs salsa - 25

meal 3 - 290

1 whole grain english muffin - 100

4 tbs tomato sauce - 40

4 tbs Tofutti cream cheese - 120

peppers and mushrooms - 30

meal 4 - 270

1 slice cinnamon raisin bread - 160

0.5 tbs peanut butter - 50

1 pudding cup - 60

meal 5 - 405

vegetable soup - 90

salmon burger - 170

whole grain english muffin - 100

lettuce, peppers and mustard - 45

meal 6 - 440

english muffin pizza - 270

plain soy yogurt - 110

pudding cup - 60

total = 1800

25 min skating

belated new year's

bekah has inspired me to get back on the saddle of health. it's amazing how quickly a few "i deserve this" truffles can turn into a pair of "i don't deserve this!!!" pants. yeah, okay, mom died and i relied heavily on comfort food - but i can't say that's a fair excuse. i owe it to her and to everyone who knows me to make choices that will keep me around as long as possible.

yesterday i exercised for the first time in two months. i masochistically decided to do a 45-minute jillian michael's workout, which left me near tears/almost vomiting on the living room floor. the burn of unused muscles is so worth it! i am terrified of running outside in this cold weather, so we'll see if if i can't get creative with today's workout.

and to keep me honest - i'll try to keep a food log. yipes.

meal 1 - 325

3/4 cup 5 grain cereal - 240

eggwhite omelette - 34

1/2 tbs butter - 51

meal 2 - 169

5 pita chips - 80
4 tbs. salsa - 20
1 orange - 69

meal 3 - 260

1 slice cinnamon raisin swirl bread - 160
1.5 tbs. chunky peanut butter - 100

meal 4 - 520

2 oz. pasta - 210
0.5 tbs olive oil - 60
caprese salad - 250

meal 5 - 560

strawberry shortcake - 500
pudding cup - 60

total = 1834
25 min cardio
30 min circuit